Oh Vickie. . . I don't know what to say either. . .
That's the way your husband wants it to be, so when you're ready for this, I'm here to join you in celebrating his life by sharing all the wonderful memories of him. I'm entirely sure that there are A LOT of us here thinking the same thing.
I 've gotten to know you over the years here in the forum, and so whenever I see your name (simply your name--before even reading anything you write), I get a good feeling, and it makes me happy. You are warm, kind, funny, and smart. And I'm sure Jun was a wonderful person like you, because people usually get together with others who are like themselves.
I will now read the posts you shared.
Warm, warm hugs to you and to your children. The only way out is through, and it's OK to feel sad while you're going through. Feeling bad about feeling bad, just makes it worse. Plus it doesn't even help. I promise that after a while, this level of sadness will go away.
How old are your three kids? I want to send them each something little in the mail.
Please let me know if that's OK with you. If it is, I'll contact Fiverr CS and request permission to have you send me a message with your address.
🌻Maytal