Totally get you, I have the same thing with Spine 2D.. and Unity, and Cinema 4D, and getting deeper into Motion Graphics too, the learning never stops!!
Well done on getting to learn Octane and Redshift even with all the mental behind kickery! One of the reasons I decided to focus on only doing Animation as a profession before joining Fiverr as an evaluator, is that you see the results as you animate, unlike rendering where you have no idea if things look good until an hour, or two, or a day has passed 😂 Never had much patience, let the shading department deal with lighting and rendering stuff!